A letter to my mother

My darling mother

What shall I write to express my feelings, 

Homesickness and loneliness are nothing compared to my longing for you.

Mammy,

It’s been 6 months that I haven’t seen you and it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever been through..

I miss you so much..

I miss you like the deserts miss the rain..

I miss you when I remember how you trusted me and encouraged me to fulfill my dream anywhere even if we had to stay apart..

I miss you when I remember that you tried to be strong when we had to say goodbye and once I cried, you cried and told me ‘’ baby, days will pass quickly and you’ll come back again to me”.

I miss you when I hold your photo and imagine that I’m holding you..

I miss you though you call me every day to make sure that I’m alright, to make sure that I wake up to school, and at night, you ask me “sweety how was your day?”.

Your calls brighten my day and eliminate the grief..

your words make me stronger to overcome my weakness..

Mother,

I know that I have troubled you a lot in my upbringing and now I regret every moment I have been the cause of your anger.

Please forgive me..

you know mammy, I promised myself when I go back home, I will always be an obedient daughter and will do what I can to make you proud of me..

Mama,

you're everything in my life..

You’re the reason for my strength in this foreignness.. 

I need you so badly..

 like a heart needs a beat,

like a flower needs the rain..

And I love you so much

I love you times the number of stars in the sky..

I love you more than you could know..

Than I could ever show..

I love you greatest mother..

_______________

Your girl

Ameerah